Dear myself,
I felt the glory of God. It was... indescribable. My heart said many thanks to God. I felt fulfilled.
Before this, I had never felt such strong presence. I had never felt this alive. For one and a half year, I was more dead than I used to be. Dear myself, do you remember how we locked our heart?
It was after that time that our heart that was already damaged was finally broken down into pieces, into ashes. We had struggled to arrange it back together. God was our only hope. But even so, we switched on our defense mechanism. We had the heart that we arranged back locked very strongly. We had frozen our heart. We had made it hard as stones.
It was so that nothing would ever break it again.
In return, our locked heart had made us drifted away from God. God had knocked our heart, but we did not open it because there were too many locks to open. Our heart was too frozen to let His hand reach us. We... had become dead inside.
It was the same question we asked each morning when we greeted God.
'Hi, God. Good morning. How are You today? Busy with all the prayers?'
We greeted God like we were friends. And yet, we still, still could not let Him enter.
We only started greeting Him just recently, and we always asked Him, 'God, this is my frozen heart. Would You accept this? I tried to unlock it... I tried to melt it... but...'
'God... I know You always had Your hand reached out to me... but I can't reach You...'
'Would You forgive me?'
But yesterday You filled me with Your Grace. You had made me made a commitment to forgive the person that made me locked my heart. You had made me made a commitment to stop my addiction to material things.
You had my body shaken by Your power. I had tried to fight it; I was unsure. But You told me to obey. 'Obey.' And I fell inside Your grace. But, God, I was happy. I was alive. My mouth was worshiping You. I worshiped You with all my heart. And I want to keep worshiping You like this, but even with more fire.
Thank You, God. Thank You, Jesus.
I want to keep on longing for You. Forever.
I felt the glory of God. It was... indescribable. My heart said many thanks to God. I felt fulfilled.
Before this, I had never felt such strong presence. I had never felt this alive. For one and a half year, I was more dead than I used to be. Dear myself, do you remember how we locked our heart?
It was after that time that our heart that was already damaged was finally broken down into pieces, into ashes. We had struggled to arrange it back together. God was our only hope. But even so, we switched on our defense mechanism. We had the heart that we arranged back locked very strongly. We had frozen our heart. We had made it hard as stones.
It was so that nothing would ever break it again.
In return, our locked heart had made us drifted away from God. God had knocked our heart, but we did not open it because there were too many locks to open. Our heart was too frozen to let His hand reach us. We... had become dead inside.
It was the same question we asked each morning when we greeted God.
'Hi, God. Good morning. How are You today? Busy with all the prayers?'
We greeted God like we were friends. And yet, we still, still could not let Him enter.
We only started greeting Him just recently, and we always asked Him, 'God, this is my frozen heart. Would You accept this? I tried to unlock it... I tried to melt it... but...'
'God... I know You always had Your hand reached out to me... but I can't reach You...'
'Would You forgive me?'
But yesterday You filled me with Your Grace. You had made me made a commitment to forgive the person that made me locked my heart. You had made me made a commitment to stop my addiction to material things.
You had my body shaken by Your power. I had tried to fight it; I was unsure. But You told me to obey. 'Obey.' And I fell inside Your grace. But, God, I was happy. I was alive. My mouth was worshiping You. I worshiped You with all my heart. And I want to keep worshiping You like this, but even with more fire.
Thank You, God. Thank You, Jesus.
I want to keep on longing for You. Forever.
